Pensive State of Mind

For a week and a half now I cant get my bearings to normal. It seems like as days pass by I feel like not doing anything but to procrastinate. I don't know why but it started when the semester ended two weeks ago. I feel like all I want to do is do something and that ends up to nothing. I stay at home. Heck even holed up at home with no internet and whatsoever entertainment. That feeling that you want to do something but you don't know what it is. I guess and I assume this is just a post-semester-syndrome. My worst and most stressful semester so far. If it is, I very much hope to get over this because heck I have a proposal to make and I didn't read even a single related literature on our 'new' topic.

I know you think this post is such a waste of post  and I admit. I just wan't to say things so that my brain will get it that she needs to work and that in real life, we do not get pause buttons like these. I am wasting my time and that is no good.

Have you ever read "The Phantom Toolbooth" by Norton Juster? I have read an excerpt of that children's book and I wish I have a Watch Dog here making sure that I am not wasting time. You should read it. Though it is a children's book, us adults have so many thing to learn from that book. Like we should go beyond expectations. We we're always taught that 'expectation causes frustration' but in this book it says that we never know what is install for us if we never go beyond what is expected of us. Which is seriously making sense. Right?

This brings me to my current pensive state of mind. Every second that I waste here in this four corners of my dormitory feels like wasting a life that I'm suppose to live. I feel like instead of making this crap post I should read something that is valuable. Ha. Now I sound like an over dramatic miss. I really don't know why I feel this way but these are the moments where you pass by 'downersville'. Everybody is entitled for a moment of two of pure drama and whatever you call them.


J xxo